My dad has been on my mind a lot lately and I am having a really hard time sleeping.
All is well professionally, but I've had a rough couple months personally and whenever I would go through something like that, I would talk to my dad and he would always make me feel better.
Even though he's been gone nine months, I still catch myself expecting to see him and when I realize that I can't, the sadness nearly takes my breath away.
The one year anniversary of his passing will be here in a couple months and the thought of that is weighing heavily on my mind.
I found this quote not long after his death and it describes so accurately the way I have been trying to deal with my grief.
Most of the time I am fine, everything is proceeding as normal and then out of nowhere I will see something or hear something, or nothing will happen and the grief will just swallow me like a tidal wave and I feel like I am drowning in sadness.
Like the quote says all I can do is swim but I don't know how, so I guess I will have to float...
